SPAZZING

SO, i need to say a BIG thank you to my parents, and my awesome awesome GOD for giving me a new lappie!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So it's a new Hp Dv6-6001Tx which I fell in love with the first time I lay my eyes on it. and since it's claimable through income taxes, my parents let me buy it even though it cost almost 3k!!!! (did i ever mention how much i love my parents? I LOVE YOU PARENTS!!!!!!!!! <3)

anyway, enough of me bragging about my laptop (did i ever mention it's 8g in RAM? XDDD), lets move on to the stuff that I wanna talk about.

so i knew i talked MBLAQ before, but i STILL gotta rant about how awesome they are. why? COZ THEY HAVE FREAKING NICE VOICES AND SONGS!!!!! i mean, how in the world can people even say that B2st is better than MBLAQ? obviously they need a better hearing. (and obviously im a super bias person. =P)

okay i have to admit. the first time i saw them was when they're rocking this style which frankly speaking, DO NOT SUIT THEM AT ALL.

omg they should just sack their stylist or whoever it was that came up with this concept/style/horrible gunk for their debut. i mean, HELLO?

ew ew ew ew ew......

i know they are trying to live up to their 'chich' idol thingy which they kept repeating (what the xxxx is CHIC anyway?????? when i think of the word chic i think of blonds with big boobs and with a headless brain. =.=''')

so anyway, i tried listening to their song 'Stay' and i got hooked. like, seriously hooked. i blasted the song waaayyy louder than i'm supposed to and danced crazily to it the whole day. there was even a period of time when my ringtone was 'stay' and i didn't wanna pick up my phone everytime it rang coz i wanna listen to the song. xDDD

click to listen to Stay

after that i started watching their variety shows and i can tell you, they are the un-chic-ness idol in real life i have ever seen. (according to them, 'chic' means cool and distant, kinda the mysterious guy feel) these guys are CRAZY and i really mean it.

first you have the 87 line which basically means the two oldest hyung who's born in 1987, G.O and Seungho.

Seungho MY BIAS (left) & G.O (right)

these two hyungs are the lamest and playful hyung EVER.... kinda like onew in shinee. =.=''' sometimes it really boggles your mind that seungho is the leader. seungho is just like an old oooold man (he doesn't even know what are fortune cookies =.=) yet a super cheeky and cute one. seungho will be the one doing the most random thing (other than joon of coz). but he can freaking play the piano LIKE A BOSS. he's also a technology freak so there was this one time when G.O and Cheondung nearly dropped his galaxy tab and his expression is just freaking hilarious.

the 87 liners favourite pastime activities is to bully the 3 maknaes. but even though mir is the youngest in the group, usually joon is the one that got bullied the most. yes he even got bullied by mir. xD

according to what i realized from all those time i spent stalking Mblaq online, joon is the one with the biggest fanbase coz he's the cutest, funniest, have the best body and is the dumbest. he's even got a nickname, called 'Muscle Fool'. (coz he's body is like the 2nd Rain but he can't do math. according to joonie, 4x7=27. =.=''')

then comes the two maknaes.

Mir (left) and Cheondung (Right)

to be honest i took a loooooooooong time trying to differentiate mir from thunder coz damn they look so alike when i first saw them!!! but as time passes then you can see that both of them are just sooooo different from each other. yes both are cute (as all the maknaes of idol groups are supposed to be except for Changmin of tvxq and kyuhyun of super junior xDDD EVIL MAKNAE DOMINATION those two...) but Mir is waaaaaaaay crazier.

He's so hyper that when they were filming some variety show which name i had forgotten, mir laid on the ground and threw a tantrum so many times coz he wasn't chosen or something. but he's soooo freaking cute i'll let it pass. ^^

cheondung is from philippines. he can speak really awesome english (as compared to other koreans la) and he's really steady compared to his other hyungs. he's in charge of being the cute one in mblaq. mir's in charge of being hyper. xD fans were commenting that mir must be eating sugar for breakfast lunch and dinner for him to get all those energy. xD

okay okay i ranted enough~ (PHEW)

but i gotta jz insert some of my favourite songs from MBLAQ here before i can sleep in peace.

Stay, Y, One Better Day, G.O.O.D Luv, Tonight, I Don't Know, You're my +, One

<3

ps: im hungry..... T.T like, my-stomach-is-literally-growling kind of hungry..........

thoughts on biasness

Yes I will definitely admit. I must be the most bias person in town right now. Isn't everyone?

U are so totally lying if u say u have never been bias, never had a bias thought, u treat everyone fairly and just.

ohhh reeeaaally?

haha, forgive me but i jz can't believe you.

nope, i REFUSE to believe you coz u r outright lying. No one on earth can be totally fair towards everything like live unless you are an animal. well, i think even animals are bias.

isn't it true that some dogs tend to like particular individuals more than the other? so where's the fairness in that?

lol.

i guess in the end all i wanna say is to CHILL. everyone seemed to be getting all work up due to biasness in the media, in the newspaper blah blah blah.

jz a few hours ago i was reading this chart mnet has for the best dancer n people were complaining how bias the chart is coz apparently guy A can dance way better than guy B yet he got lower rank.

Face it people, you are bias yourself coz the dancer in YOUR opinion did not get the result YOU wanted. *shrug* why get all work up then?

Yes i am bias and YES i am wayyyy happy with the result. (yunho oppa got first~~~<3)

Now shall i have the honour of sharing some of my current obsession and total biasness towards some of the people in the entertainment world? (im so into the korean wave right now.... =.=''')

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currently i am super super obsessed with this person. It was ever since I heard him singing "I'm a Loner" n i fell in loveeeeeeeee~ He's got such an amazing voice n AMAZING GUITAR SKILLS!!! okay maybe not THAT amazing. STILL, when he's playing the guitar i just aboutMELTED~~~~ then when I started watching 'We Got Married', he is soooo childish and playful, just like an elementary kid. but he can be so thoughtful, sensitive and romantic. (just go see all those presents he gave his 'wife'. HE GAVE HER TWO GUITARS DAMMIT. i want to marry him... !@$@#$!#)

no its not just because of the guitars...........

well it's partly because of the guitars. xP

Jung Yong Hwa

Listen to their debut song "I'm a loner" here.

*The first song on my playlist was sung by him to his 'wife' Seohyun from SNSD. The song was written by Yonghwa specially for her. sweeeeeeeet~~

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next, i have been obsessing over these few groups for quite a period of time now.

BIG BANG

If asked the reason for liking them, it's just because they seemed so different from the other 'idol' groups such as B2st, Shinee, Mblaq and more. They are more to each having a totally different style (from singing, rapping, personality to the way they dress and talk) yet when they come together they have this same rhythm which brings them all together.

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CN Blue

Can't really remember the reason why I even started liking CN Blue. I mean, yeah I fell in love with their songs, but what triggered me to even youtube their song in the first place? Hmmm.... oh well. I'm loving the fact that their an indie band. ^^ Although that means they dun hv a large entertainment company like other groups (SM Entertainment, YG etc...) to back them up and promote them, but they record and produce their own album by themselves so thats one reason why they rawk!!!!~

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Ft Island

They are so young, yet they have so much talent. Especially the lead singer Lee Hong Ki, it's scary how he can reach all those super high notes where even girls' voice will crack. The youngest is 19 and eldest 21 (Malaysian age). Same age as me, yet they debuted as early as 2006 which means the eldest is only 16-years-old. the youngest is only.... u do the math. now that is what you call real scary...

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Of course, the last and my most favourite of all, Dong Bang Shin Ki.

Definitely I miss all 5 of them together, but if ask to choose between JYJ and Homin, without a doubt I will choose Homin.

Why?

Coz i'm 100% Yunho bias. I choose the group which has Yunho. Full stop. hahahahahhaha~

I have been Yunho bias ever since I heard of DBSK in my secondary school days. Everyone (mostly all the girls) was crazy about them and keeps talking about this guy named Hero. All I knew then was that Hero must be the most beautiful guy I have ever seen and Yunho is defnitely the most handsome one. Until now I just can't help but shake my head in denial when Jaejoong appeared in charts for being 'handsome' or 'manly' coz that is like... the last thing i would use to describe him.

Jaejoong is pure beautiful. I might say he is hot in a hot-and-sexy-in-a-feminine-way too.

Whereas my Yunho oppa, he is the definite opposite. Manly, oozing with charisma yet real blur until he bang into random people when he walks, Yunho possess the qualities of a leader even before he debuted as DBSK. Through interviews I got to know that he likes to show his 'cool' side to the world and not his actual 'blur and cute' side which the other 4 kept talking about. Yunho is also very touchy. I noticed he tends to hug every single male friend he has.

At first I really thought there was something going on between him and Jaejoong... (with all the touchy feely acts they put up and somehow they seemed to like secretly looking at each other when they thought no one is looking... =.=) n not to mention, Jaejoong is such a girl. he can cooks, likes to decorate his food before serving, always looks at the mirror, loves to compliment on how manly Yunho is (he did that a few times edi. all it does is to make them look more and more like husband and wife), n he does things like laugh with his hand covering his mouth and flicking his hair away from his eyes with a cute yet not-very-manly side jerk of his head.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love Jaejoong. I have nothing against him. (except the fact that he is really too beautiful to be taken seriously as a guy...) n i absolutely love the interaction between him and Yunho coz I think that their friendship is real. They genuinely like each other as a person and they are not afraid to show skinship. (abit too over in some parts but oh well.. that's fan service for you...)

**try typing 'yunjae' in google and look at those photoshopped pics fans made of them. =.=''' it's scary but amusing in a way. photoshop is such an AMAZING thing......

I was so upset that the five of them couldn't reach an agreement and decided to continue separately. I miss Junsu, Yoochun and Jaejoong desperately. Well, they are doing very well right now just the three of them, but somehow I lost interest in hearing their songs. Homin on the other hand, it's heartbreaking at first to watch just two of them desperately trying to keep hold on DBSK and to keep the spirit alive. But they are doing so well and I am so proud of them.

No matter what people say, in my opinion, Yunho and Changmin were the one being left behind by the other three members. It was the other three who left DBSK, not Yunho and Changmin. So fans really do not have any stand in being pissed off that Homin still uses the name DBSK when there are no longer five of them.

I admire Homin.

I can fully and clearly hear their vocals now and even though I miss the five of them together, I wouldn't pressure them into reuniting as 5 again. If they really wanted to achieve their dreams as 5, then JYJ will return. Enough said.

I just did wha-?

I had just left a message to Gino on his blog. It's weird that suddenly he just popped up in my mind and I started missing him badly. So i went online to search for him and then I found out that... K One had disbanded over 3 years ago. =.='''

why oh why am I always that slow?

it was just a few months ago when suddenly I came upon F4‘ｓ (yes, THE F4 with Vanness and Vic those bunch...) video and I started thinking, 'hey, they aint that bad... lets give their music a try!' and then only realized I had been 10 freaking years too late. =_______________='''

Miss Kang, 你到底怎么了？

好遗憾哦！时间过得那么快。。。现在的我根本回不到那少年疯狂的时代了。。。　T.T (Imagine me standing in front of some idol's stage at a concert and screaming and jumping about going 'KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa'.... *shudders*) 但我好想念以前。。。

还记得那几年是先开始喜欢５５６６的仁甫。那年应该是２００５年吧。。。都已６年了。。。现在的仁甫已婚，而且还有了两个可爱的孩子。哈哈。真是为他高兴。（也很心酸。。。ｌｏｌ）

然后就喜欢上Ｋ　Ｏｎｅ的Ｇ老大。一看他就觉得这个人帅帅帅！！！帅毙了！那时才１６岁，什么事都只看外表。现在想起来，难怪娱乐圈那么现实；也那么容易骗小朋友。　xD

现在长大了。但在心内的某个地方然而有他们的背影。就好像不是我陪他们长大，而是他们陪着我成长。　好想念你们哦。。。

真的很奇怪。明明不认识你，但是当看到你的新闻，你所面对的挑战时，我都会莫名其妙得为你加油，为你感到紧张，担心。我早已经不觉得我是歌迷，而是一位怪卡。会对一些根本不知道我存在的人那么在乎。

但，我很开心哦。

不管别人说我长不大还是怎样，我就是我。对我以前喜欢过的人，我一定不会忘记。一旦在我心里，就永远都会在我心里了。

我能活在这个世界上，为这些每天辛苦工作的艺人们加油打气，献上我满满的祝福，那我能活得多快乐啊。反正我对他们的好意又不会妨碍到别人～　自己开心，人家也快乐。那就是我活着的動機!　<3

Lets spread the love folks~ Spread the LOVE~

God bless all of you!

I love you guys!

HL ^^

wow... hark those spider webbies~

SO.

I heard on the radio a week ago that justin bieber did not win the grammy but some weird jazz lady did.

LOL.

im not a bieber fan, but SERIOUSLY, if u ask me, bieber do deserve the best artist award. i mean, hello? he's like the biggest star on earth now. =.= im not surprise that he's even more popular than our Mr Jay Chou.

So why oh why did dear bieber lose to a never-heard-before singer named Esperanza Spalding (did i even get her name right?)?

in mere 5 seconds, i came up with 3 answers.

1. the committee of grammy's this year really HATED justin bieber with a vengence so they'd give the award to any1 BUT him.

2. they're trying to attract more attention and stir some real commotion among the society n the only way to stir up MORE trouble than letting bieber win is NOT letting him win. reverse pyschology, see? ppl can be brilliantly stupid once in a while.

3. they honestly felt that this Esperalda person had more talent than bieber does. (of coz i dun blame them coz that girl can play the bass and sing at the same time!!! woot!)

but its funny the way bieber fans reacted when he didn't win.

they trashed esperalda's wiki page.

LOL.

thats reaaaaaaally amusing. xD

well, all i can say is, thank you internet, for making things so amusing.

hahahahahah

i hope bieber does win some kinda award though. it IS amazing for a 16 year old boy from youtube to grow to be one of the most popular person in the world. (n popular dont necessarily mean in a good way....)

may God go with you kid.

n please try not to get yourself killed by anti-bieber fans before you reach puberty. =.='''

Reminiscence of year 2010

deleted.

why?

coz i realized that sometimes im just too nice u noe. like, i wan others to feel better abt themselves or the whole situation n i'll do anything to achieve that. then i realized i've jz been stabbed in the back by that same person i was trying to be so nice to.

im an idiot.

im mean.

fear

who can really say they dont hv any fear in them?

whether its fear of ghosts, or people, or others... there will be fear in all of us. i noe i noe... the bible told us not to fear for God is bigger than everything in this world. i truly do believe that. but still... i fear.

what do i fear?

i fear always of my own incapability.

can i really do this? can i really be raise up? can i successfully lead others? can i lead an outreach? can i get new members? can i even keep my old members?

so many fears... so many worries... rushing into my head, into my heart, filling me with a type of panic that threatens to sufforcate me...

if i ever have a choice, i would choose to quietly sit at the back. im afraid of responsibility, terrified of failing other people, failing myself.

but...

this is not a good habit is it? its a flaw, rite?

people are not meant to fear so much... i havent even try it, why am i even thinking of the outcome? n ahhh being me, always only thinking on the negative side.

maybe bcoz i can handle other people failing me, but i cant handle me failing me?

ahhhhh i have to change.

i have to stop fearing so much, worry so much...

God says: "Let tomorrow worry for itself. Today will have enough worries on it's own."

true true.

sometimes we jz need to close our eyes and enjoy our lives.

after all,

live IS pretty short.

=)

anyway, this sentence has never fails to bring a smile to my face. let me just share it here with you guys.

'manchester united seems macho'

true aint it? xD

thankiew man-u!!!!

i'll be sleeping with a big smile on my face tonight.

<3

HL

on the 23rd...

i'll be a new person. =)

i made a promise, a covenant, a vow, a step that I'll take in order to make sure God is in control of my life, and not me.

I'm coming back to Jesus, my savior, my Lord, my first and most beloved.

Lord, only You know how much I truly love You.

I'm really sorry for my actions are not showing my love towards You at all...

everything I do seemed wrong and against everything that You've taught me.

the things that I do...

the words that I say...

the way I made my decisions...

it was all done in fear.

for I'm so afraid of losing things that are precious to me.

but Lord, You have told me straight to my face on saturday during service.

You said:

"My child, your problems is so small to Me. Trust Me, and let Me take over. It's time for you to let go. Let go of all your sufferings and your hesitations, and let My love and grace take over."

And now I say to you oh Lord:

"Yes, my Father. I'm willing to let it all go. No matter how much tears I will shed and no matter how much my heart will break, I will surrender everything Lord, everything, to You and only You. No matter what other people say, no matter what I really want, I will do everything that YOU want. For You are my God, my Lord, my most beloved."

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Father of life, seated on Your throne of grace
It's only by Your mercy we are saved
Lord, You have said if we call upon Your Name
We and our families will be saved

So we cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

Father of love, never failing to forgive
Each moment is a gift from You to live
We're only here to tell the world about Your grace
Until the day You take us all away

We will cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

O, so we cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

O, so we cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

Amen.