I just did wha-?

I had just left a message to Gino on his blog. It's weird that suddenly he just popped up in my mind and I started missing him badly. So i went online to search for him and then I found out that... K One had disbanded over 3 years ago. =.='''

why oh why am I always that slow?

it was just a few months ago when suddenly I came upon F4‘ｓ (yes, THE F4 with Vanness and Vic those bunch...) video and I started thinking, 'hey, they aint that bad... lets give their music a try!' and then only realized I had been 10 freaking years too late. =_______________='''

Miss Kang, 你到底怎么了？

好遗憾哦！时间过得那么快。。。现在的我根本回不到那少年疯狂的时代了。。。　T.T (Imagine me standing in front of some idol's stage at a concert and screaming and jumping about going 'KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa'.... *shudders*) 但我好想念以前。。。

还记得那几年是先开始喜欢５５６６的仁甫。那年应该是２００５年吧。。。都已６年了。。。现在的仁甫已婚，而且还有了两个可爱的孩子。哈哈。真是为他高兴。（也很心酸。。。ｌｏｌ）

然后就喜欢上Ｋ　Ｏｎｅ的Ｇ老大。一看他就觉得这个人帅帅帅！！！帅毙了！那时才１６岁，什么事都只看外表。现在想起来，难怪娱乐圈那么现实；也那么容易骗小朋友。　xD

现在长大了。但在心内的某个地方然而有他们的背影。就好像不是我陪他们长大，而是他们陪着我成长。　好想念你们哦。。。

真的很奇怪。明明不认识你，但是当看到你的新闻，你所面对的挑战时，我都会莫名其妙得为你加油，为你感到紧张，担心。我早已经不觉得我是歌迷，而是一位怪卡。会对一些根本不知道我存在的人那么在乎。

但，我很开心哦。

不管别人说我长不大还是怎样，我就是我。对我以前喜欢过的人，我一定不会忘记。一旦在我心里，就永远都会在我心里了。

我能活在这个世界上，为这些每天辛苦工作的艺人们加油打气，献上我满满的祝福，那我能活得多快乐啊。反正我对他们的好意又不会妨碍到别人～　自己开心，人家也快乐。那就是我活着的動機!　<3

Lets spread the love folks~ Spread the LOVE~

God bless all of you!

I love you guys!

HL ^^

wow... hark those spider webbies~

SO.

I heard on the radio a week ago that justin bieber did not win the grammy but some weird jazz lady did.

LOL.

im not a bieber fan, but SERIOUSLY, if u ask me, bieber do deserve the best artist award. i mean, hello? he's like the biggest star on earth now. =.= im not surprise that he's even more popular than our Mr Jay Chou.

So why oh why did dear bieber lose to a never-heard-before singer named Esperanza Spalding (did i even get her name right?)?

in mere 5 seconds, i came up with 3 answers.

1. the committee of grammy's this year really HATED justin bieber with a vengence so they'd give the award to any1 BUT him.

2. they're trying to attract more attention and stir some real commotion among the society n the only way to stir up MORE trouble than letting bieber win is NOT letting him win. reverse pyschology, see? ppl can be brilliantly stupid once in a while.

3. they honestly felt that this Esperalda person had more talent than bieber does. (of coz i dun blame them coz that girl can play the bass and sing at the same time!!! woot!)

but its funny the way bieber fans reacted when he didn't win.

they trashed esperalda's wiki page.

LOL.

thats reaaaaaaally amusing. xD

well, all i can say is, thank you internet, for making things so amusing.

hahahahahah

i hope bieber does win some kinda award though. it IS amazing for a 16 year old boy from youtube to grow to be one of the most popular person in the world. (n popular dont necessarily mean in a good way....)

may God go with you kid.

n please try not to get yourself killed by anti-bieber fans before you reach puberty. =.='''

Reminiscence of year 2010

deleted.

why?

coz i realized that sometimes im just too nice u noe. like, i wan others to feel better abt themselves or the whole situation n i'll do anything to achieve that. then i realized i've jz been stabbed in the back by that same person i was trying to be so nice to.

im an idiot.

im mean.

fear

who can really say they dont hv any fear in them?

whether its fear of ghosts, or people, or others... there will be fear in all of us. i noe i noe... the bible told us not to fear for God is bigger than everything in this world. i truly do believe that. but still... i fear.

what do i fear?

i fear always of my own incapability.

can i really do this? can i really be raise up? can i successfully lead others? can i lead an outreach? can i get new members? can i even keep my old members?

so many fears... so many worries... rushing into my head, into my heart, filling me with a type of panic that threatens to sufforcate me...

if i ever have a choice, i would choose to quietly sit at the back. im afraid of responsibility, terrified of failing other people, failing myself.

but...

this is not a good habit is it? its a flaw, rite?

people are not meant to fear so much... i havent even try it, why am i even thinking of the outcome? n ahhh being me, always only thinking on the negative side.

maybe bcoz i can handle other people failing me, but i cant handle me failing me?

ahhhhh i have to change.

i have to stop fearing so much, worry so much...

God says: "Let tomorrow worry for itself. Today will have enough worries on it's own."

true true.

sometimes we jz need to close our eyes and enjoy our lives.

after all,

live IS pretty short.

=)

anyway, this sentence has never fails to bring a smile to my face. let me just share it here with you guys.

'manchester united seems macho'

true aint it? xD

thankiew man-u!!!!

i'll be sleeping with a big smile on my face tonight.

<3

HL

on the 23rd...

i'll be a new person. =)

i made a promise, a covenant, a vow, a step that I'll take in order to make sure God is in control of my life, and not me.

I'm coming back to Jesus, my savior, my Lord, my first and most beloved.

Lord, only You know how much I truly love You.

I'm really sorry for my actions are not showing my love towards You at all...

everything I do seemed wrong and against everything that You've taught me.

the things that I do...

the words that I say...

the way I made my decisions...

it was all done in fear.

for I'm so afraid of losing things that are precious to me.

but Lord, You have told me straight to my face on saturday during service.

You said:

"My child, your problems is so small to Me. Trust Me, and let Me take over. It's time for you to let go. Let go of all your sufferings and your hesitations, and let My love and grace take over."

And now I say to you oh Lord:

"Yes, my Father. I'm willing to let it all go. No matter how much tears I will shed and no matter how much my heart will break, I will surrender everything Lord, everything, to You and only You. No matter what other people say, no matter what I really want, I will do everything that YOU want. For You are my God, my Lord, my most beloved."

*

Father of life, seated on Your throne of grace
It's only by Your mercy we are saved
Lord, You have said if we call upon Your Name
We and our families will be saved

So we cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

Father of love, never failing to forgive
Each moment is a gift from You to live
We're only here to tell the world about Your grace
Until the day You take us all away

We will cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

O, so we cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

O, so we cry out Your Name, El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ
We rely on Your grace, Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord Most High, Jesus Christ

Amen.

i wrote lot, but ended up deleting everything.

i dun hv the courage to post it up...

always... always...

it ends up being a blank paper.

n me, jz sitting in front of the comp, feeling my heart getting broken over n over again.

when is this gonna stop?

dun ask me anything, bcoz i wun tell.

why do i even write all this up then?

i dunno...

maybe its bcoz there's no one to tell.

no one...

latest obssession

hark my playlist, something's different. ^^

i fell in love, AGAIN.

this time with irish music. seriously, their music is just so hauntingly beautiful that i will never get bored listening to it. soothing, relaxing, yet lightly mysterious and it haunts ur heart.

all musics were composed by Ronan Hardiman. Famous for composing traditional irish musical scores for series and musicals.if only i can get to see his musical.... even though i will need to learn irish first....

hmmm... maybe instead of australia, i should really go to ireland.

i love ireland.

IRELAND HEY-HO~! ^^v

<3

HL