typical day, not so typical night

and there i was just 2 hours ago, happily telling one fren that i do not blog emo posts in this blog. n here i am two hours later, feeling crappy n jz wanna emo all the way through this post.

i hate it when people fights.

i hate fighting with people. i hate quarrelling. im afraid of it.

to be deadly honest, i always feel like crying when people fight in front of me. even when they might be people who i do not know.

once i saw a couple screaming at each other on some random tv drama, n my eyes just reddens up. i know its stupid, but thats just how much i hate fighting. i remember i was in quite a heated discussion with a very close fren once in snowflake, we had diff opinions n was kinda 'quarrelling' but in a very mild manner wif no raised voice or anything. yet halfway through i stopped myself from saying anymore bcoz i felt tired, depress n just wanna cry.

why do humans fight? bcoz we always think we're right. yet when the other person says something u know its not true about u or about the situation n all u wanna do is just make them understand, there's nothing u can do but to jz insist on yr own point. and when the other person does exactly jz that, we end up wif two people insisting on their opinions, neither wanting to give in n ended up hurting the relationship between them and hurting themselves.

fights breaks two loving people up; fights tears apart a family; fights tears apart a person emotionally and mentally as well.

but when the other person refuses to understand where u r coming from, what else is there to do but fight for your own views and opinions?

i hate it when my family fights.

bcoz there's nothing i can do.

nothing i can say to make it all better.

when everything's said and done, all that's left is hurt and wounded hearts.

to those out there who's reading this, im sorry if we ever had a fight. no matter how small or how big.

but i jz wan to get it across.

it hurts badly when u refuses to listen to me. coz all i wan is for u to understand how i feel abt it. not for u to do things my way.

all i need is jz yr understanding. mayb sometimes a kind word here n there, n not the cold hard facts that im wrong n this is wrong n everything is wrong wrong wrong.

im a human, of course i can be wrong sometimes, most of the times... i know that. i jz dont need u to say it over n over again.

please, let us stop fighting.

sometimes i jz need you to listen to me. even if im wrong. u can tell me that next time. but please, jz listen to me sometimes...

we all need people to listen to us. even if what we're saying is wrong, we just need u to listen without correcting us.

lets all learn to be good listeners, okay?

dont hurt each other anymore by trying to prove you're right.

and please, dont fight in front of me. i cant take it.

im weak.

i'll cry.

im absolutely 100% serious.

sigh sigh sigh...

i wonder...

will you ever read this?

or hv you stopped reading my stuff?

can you understand what im trying to say?

im sorry for that day.

n...

thank you, for everything.

=)

HL