Toy Story 3

AWESOMEEEEEE!!!!

i actually watched it twice and can still laugh and cry (not literally) at all the funny and sad parts!!!! never thought i'll actually say this but...

this beat shrek 4 anytime.

shrek is a big disappointment for me. it's way too short for one thing. and the story plot is just predictable, boring and... not as touching as toy story. *shrug* what? i can't help but compare...

(and the fact that i wached shrek from a lousy dvd that goes super blur every 15 minutes doesn't help either....)

oooohhh and i absolutely LOVEEE buzz's spanish mode. xDDDDD

toy story 3 is the best one out of all three in my opinion, whereas shrek 1 is the best out of all four. hmmm... next target, karate kid!

=D

HL

18sx (BEWARE, u hv been warned.)

im gonna be ranting abt some very disgusting things today. things that my mum will scream n delete my blog the instance she read it n mayb even chop off my hands for good measures so that i will never again write abt stuff like this EVER.

am i arousing yr curiousity?

okay. so the inspiration for this post came from my junk mail at when im checking my hotmail. for YEARS i've been receiving emails from various stupid companies (or mayb they're jz from some sick individuals) asking me if i'm interested in making my penis larger in HUGH BLOCK CAPITAL LETTERS.

seriously? i wanted to reply them and say, hello? i don't have a freaking penis. so STOP SENDING ME THESE EMAILS!!!!! it;s freaking annoying coz i always be tempted to click on that link jz to see what kinda pills enlarges men's *ahem*. there, i admit it. im super curious to see those pills.

but always i managed to control myself in fear of:

1. virus

2. guilt. (i do fear God, very much thank you.)

3. seeing something which i should not see, n yes it starts with a 'p'.

soooo... these emails are jz freaking annoying coz they tempt me n disgust me n irritates my eyebrows off all at the same time!!!!

but here's the million dollar question which came in ANOTHER form of junk email, this time from a betty wats-her-name. her email was titled "important email from betty xxx" n i clicked on it. *stupid me* n it goes like this, FIND OUT IF THESE PENIS ENLARGEMENT PILLS REALLY WORK!". (why the caps? is it a selling-pills-for-enlarging-penis-company thing?or maybe it;s their way of catching attention. they sure got mine.)

now THAT is the question i really wanna know. i know for one these pills are certainly NOT viagra (i didnt know how to spell it so i googled it. =.= guilty~) coz viagra jz makes u hard... right? (urgh awkward!!!!!!) but apparently these pills makes guy's *ahem* LONGER n BIGGER....

how?

i really wonder.

i mean, biologically its kinda impossible right? but i know one of the effective way is for me to kick it really hard so that it swells up n voila! bigger n fatter! (longer i doubt... hmmm... maybe stretching it? LOL)

or mayb those pills will increase the fats around it so it grows. but seriously, its that three little word again.

I. Doubt. It.

its the exact same thing wif those creams women puts on their breast in hope that it will grow larger. THEY DO NOT WORK. okay? nada. not to say i tried it on myself (how could i? i mean, they're super expensive!!!!!! i'll never afford it... haha) but come on, if its really effective, there're bound to be superstars promoting it coz every rich women will rush to buy it for themselves n their daughters n their granddaughters n maybe even their sons. (??? u'll never know.)

thats why, seriously, these penis-enlarging pills? i. doubt. it.

so, lets come back to the main topic.

STOP SENDING ME THESE EMAILS COZ ITS IRRITATING N SUPER ANNOYING!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AT LEAST SEND IT TO SUM1 WITH THAT THING COZ I SURE AS ANYTHING DO NOT HAVE ONE.

okay. rant over.

kinda explicit for me. haha... i dun blog abt this thing. i mean, i never tried. but im jz feeling kinda hyper n pissed off n annoyed u noe... n yea, lack of sleep. xD (during holiday???? u got THAT right!!!!)

early morning tmr! woot!!!! =)

chillex ppl~

HL

special message to you

This goes out to someone very important to me. You know who you are.

Please be strong and happy. In my opinion, life must be filled with happiness. Of course there will be stress and sadness occasionally, but please don’t let it take the place of joy in your life…

You always look tired nowadays… I wanted to help but I just don’t know how. All I can do is pray, and believe me every day I’m praying for you. I believe in our Almighty God. He’ll give you strength and heal you. He’ll stand up straight and carry you along with all your burden. So, trust in Him, and let Him work His wonderful miracle in you.

Please stop degrading yourself. You’re still an amazing person. It doesn’t mean just because you’ve done some mistake that you’ll lose your credibility forever. Even though you might have lost it now, but you can always gain it back. Maybe not in this area, but in other areas? Please don’t give up. I still have faith in you. I know all of us does.

I’m totally honest when I say you are an amazing person. Was, still and will always be. Because it’s who you are. You have that kind of personality that can brighten up people’s day and encourage them no matter what. You can still do so much… but it seemed like all the pressures are weighing you down, causing you depression and tiredness…

I know there are a lot of things I will not be able to understand… like how you think and how you feel and all… but I just want to see you happy and well again. =) that is what I truly feel.

Please continue to hang on and stay strong.

I’m always, always here when you need me.

If you need me.

cheers!^^

inspirations from kit kor~ xD

So here’s the thing. Yeu Kit was the one who started this ‘description of my frens n guess who u r’ thing n I got hooked after I saw his n I go ‘I wanna do it too!!!!’ n he graciously give me his copyrighted permission to do my own version in my blog. (yippee KIT KOR~!) xD

So there u go. Everything is written based on how I feel n think n know u as an individual throughout everything we’ve been through together n I hope u won’t take it badly if there is something negative written there. No hard feelings intended, I still love you with all my heart. <3

I can’t say I ever had a real heart to heart talk with you before (the only one time I rmbr was in your car n it was a really SHORT one), but I think u’re a very very nice person, always smiling and making me happy by the weirdest yet sweetest things that comes out of your mouth. =) u brighten up the atmosphere everywhere u go and I sincerely think u hv the cutest yet weirdest accent ever among everyone I know. xD however u do hv a tendency to show yr dislike for a person by bad mouthing them behind their backs n your words do seem to hv double meaning when u’re talking to someone u despise (n usually its very obvious when u do not like a person) so I do tend to get a little scared of getting into yr bad books (meaning, offending u la~). Still, u can be the bestest, cutest, warmest n most supportive friends to those whom u sincerely like n I really am grateful to be your fren for that. =)

I used to think that you’re the most flirteous person I’ve ever met even way back in secondary school. N I do rmbr u sharing some of ur private stuff n feelings wif me that utterly left me speechless coz I hv no idea u can be so ‘geng’ feeling wise. ^^ but when I saw how u pull through all these years n still remain faithful (kinda), I must say u’re not THAT bad la~ (although I will kill myself if my bf is like tt… xD) u’re really a very very good friend to everyone. Although I know u harbor some dislike towards some ppl in our gang, u dun show it n yet u continue supporting them n being a very good fren to them, n seriously, that is what I really admire abt u coz even though some might label u as a hypocrite for being so nice in front of them yet dislike them behind their back, I think u’re actually amazing for being able to still be friendly towards them even though u dislike them for some reasons. It’s way better than those who out right doesn’t even try to be civilize anyway n only concentrate on showing how much they dislike sum1 instead of trying to still remain as frens regardless of the differences n everything. =)

I’ve known u for sooo freaking long, n been through quite abit wif u too. =) I’ll still laugh n wonder in amazement at what we’ve gone through last time during tmn sea days but overall it was a pretty good memory for me. I hope it is too for u. hehe. Well, u can talk to everyone. Ppl jz find u easy to talk to, easy going, apa pun boleh, treat girls very very nicely n always look out for girls. U actually changed a lot. U dun hv any confidence last time, very quiet n shy, its so hard to talk to u n u seemed to doubt everything. But now, u’re standing up for yr own dreams, doing what u always wanted to do n enjoying life. U’re no longer that lost person who don’t know what he wants to do in the future. Frankly speaking, im very happy about who u’re growing up to become. =) I know I sound like a grandmother, but this is sincerely from my heart. I treasure u a lot as my fren, n jz wanna thank you for all the encouragement u’ve given me and all the time u spent trying to get back in touch wif me n listening to my problems. THANK YOU!!!!

U’re very strong minded, at times very controllable, but most of the times u hv your own reasons. N when ppl don’t ask u wat is that reason, u wun say it. So this often lead to many misunderstanding n ended up u’re not happy n the other ppl also not happy. i think the problem here is pride. Everyone has them, yet few are willing to admit it or do anything abt it. Somehow, if u try thinking more abt others, it might be tough for u or unfair towards u, but u’ll feel how much the other person is thanking u for. How loved u r by the ppl u r actually going through for. But I hv to say this, after pushing aside yr façade, the below person is so beautiful, so caring, so lovable n jz so attractive (in terms of personality, talent n character) that if ppl can jz see past yr flaws, no one can resist liking u for who u r on the inside. ^^ so, jz touch up on the flaws, lower your pride, think more abt other ppl, n all those stereotyping mindset ppl hv of u will gradually disappear, n u’ll get frens who will never EVER leave u, coz u’re a fren that not worth losing for anything in the world.

Sometimes we’re really close, other times we’re very far apart. I wun hold u to the fact u never give me a warning before disappearing from my life then re-appearing again bcoz I know u’ve got your reasons. However, I still would appreciate it if u can sometimes give me a heads-up on whats going on in your life, so that I wun jz feel left behind everytime. Nevertheless, we hv some serious things in common. We both went through quite a lot together too n I really appreciate that. However I do feel like u’re keeping many many things to yourself most of the times. When I ask u about it, sometimes u’ll reveal, sometimes u wont. I hope u still can find a credible n trustworthy fren in me, coz I still wanna remain there for u if ever u nid a listening ear. I think u’re a very honest person who will only do what your heart desire, even if it meant it’ll hurt sum1 else in the process. However, I do understand also why u do it n I’ve not think badly of u jz bcoz of that. This is bcoz I’ve experience the wonderful, great fren that is inside of u that is jz amazing, even though it really hard to find. =) im glad I’ve found it.

It really sad how ppl judge u by what they know abt u which is pathetically little (as u yourself do hv the tendency to keep every damn thing inside of u n dun reveal it, so HOW THE HELL CAN PPL KNOW????). I’ve also known u for a really really long time n u haven’t really change. But there is one major change, n that is u finally know how to take care of someone. =) I rmbr last time everything that comes out of your mouth hurts like shit, but now u actually are very sensitive to ppl’s feelings, often not doing things that u know will hurt other ppl (even if u dun admit it, ADMIT IT ALREADY). U always say u dislike this person n blah blah blah, yet u still remain frens with that person, care for them, helping them n stuff. So see? U’re not as terrible as u always claim to be. ^^ those who dont really know u will think that u’re a generally strong person, that nothing can hurt your feelings coz u always oso taka pa no matter what they say or do to u, but somewhere inside, u really care n are often hurt by what they said or do. But always ALWAYS u don’t say anything coz u KNOW they think u’re okay n u dun want to change that. I wanna help u, but I dun noe how. Its not my place to do anything anyway. Its your life, n u hv the right n the responsibility to make sure that it’s a good one. So.. love yourself a bit more. Care for yourself like how you care for me. =) u’re better at taking care of others than yourself I realized. Mayb it’s time to change that.

Now u’re someone whom I’ve always enjoyed talking to. ^^ no matter on what topic, u always hv your own opinions n views n u can describe them in LENGTH that even surpasses me. xD even though ppl always make fun of you, u don’t seemed to hold it against them until it became a grudge or a revenge kinda thing, so I really admire u for that, bcoz I know those remarks n jokes can really hurt n sting. However I can see that u;re standing up for yourself now, defending your pride n honour against all those hurtful things that they say, so good for u! though I hv to say ur vocab is so much more colourful now that I sometimes flinch when I hear u speak coz I jz cant believe how much u’ve changed. Mayb u’ll wanna brush on that abit? Coz u are not those kind of ppl that are naturally rough n vulgar, u’re so much more than them. U’re sweet, naturally caring for all your frens, thoughtful, kind, generous, n a great great GREAT n wonderful fren when someone ever nids a listening ear. I really think u’ve mature to a stage where ppl often jz see past the outer appearance, n genuinely like u for who u are coz on the inside, u’re jz so lovable that everyone cant help but find a sincere friend in you. =)

I know many people hv a similar mindset of u. in fact, all of us (including me) often hv no idea why u react in this certain manner or why ur acting in a certain way. They say u r manipulative, controlling n very very smart with your words n actions. But I think u’re jz a normal human being that tends to think too much, worry too much n forever being too hard on yourself. I cant say for sure that everything u’ve told me is 100% true or u’ve made things up so I’ll sympathize with u, but what I can say is this. Im a naturally trusting person (n this is so gonna kill me one day in this stupid world), n whatever u told me I really do believe that it came from yr heart. I can understand why u’re acting like this, although many cant n usually they do not accept u or your reasons, but I think that ppl should not judge u on that. They say u always plan beforehand everything that u do, but honestly? Everyone does it. Though not as thoroughly as u, but it jz shows that u’re a careful person. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Its okay to relax n not care for once how ppl will judge u on what u’re doing. Actually, all of us are the biggest contributing factor as to why u hv to act like this today. We are so called, the one to blame coz all the stereotyping n the judging? It all starts from us, your so-called frens. So I hope u can forgive us, n I hope we can forgive u too. Coz none of us are perfect, but what I see inside of u, is a wonderful, great, caring, attentive, sensitive and loyal friend. N if u give urself a chance, mayb u’ll see it too. =)

I cant say we’re super close, but I cant say we’re not close… well, I don’t realy know much about u, only I realize u often jz go with the flow of everything that’s happening around u. u hv your own opinions n everything, but most of the times it’s others who r influencing u in actual actions.im not sure if ur feelings n opinions will be influenced as well, but I do know that u;re also one of the ultra tak-apa person n will probably say ‘anything’ to everything other ppl suggest (unless u really really don’t like it.) however I also do realize that u tend to be quite emo sometimes. But when u’re hyper, u bring life everywhere u go. U’re small, but u hv a big heart. Willing to go close to a person n jz listen to their problems, sharing your own opinions, then encourage them to move on. This is something that I find is a really good quality in you. Coz this quality actually make u a very credible fren, trustworthy and responsible. Although u do tend to make the stupidest mistake when it’s regarding your own relationship life. xD I also find that u r very particular in your own personal grooming. U cant stand it if your hair is too messy n u will never be caught dead wearing a shirt that will make u look old or out of fashion. It’s a good thing, only sometimes it can be quite annoying when u kept stopping at reflective surfaces to check your own reflection. xD

U have really really change a lot. =) I used to think of you as a big bully when I first knew u, n my impression of u got a lot worse when I saw the way u handle your relationship problems when we were in high school. However, I realized that the new u is actually very sensitive towards girls, caring towards them n u will not do anything when u know that thing will hurt them, either directly or indirectly. This is only true for girls though. U don’t really give a damn if yr actions or the things u said hurt a guy. that’s not really good coz guys do hv feelings as well, n sooner or later u’ll nid to acknowledge that coz they’ll slowly lose trust towards u coz u tend to be too reckless n they jz felt being stepped upon everytime they’re with you. U’ve got to rmbr that guys hv their pride n if u step on it too much, its either u’ll lose a fren, or u’ll eventually break them. But I recently realized that u’re actually a great big softie. U might look like a gangster, heck u even dress like one sometimes (wif the ear piercing n all~ hehe), but yr heart is one of pure frenship, one that is loyal, amazingly caring (I cant believe it myself haha), sensitive and supportive. So all in all, u r a really great fren. Only pls don’t scare ppl off before they get to see your quality. =.= Its time to lose the VULGAR way of talking n all those hurtful jokes o~ but I really enjoy knowing u n seeing yr changes as we grow in life. In my opinion, u r a really strong n independent person, n I really, really admire u for that.

So there u are, the 10 important frens in my life. Kekeke. Of coz if u;re not in there doesn’t mean u’re not important la. Its jz that u don’t know them n they don’t now u so it makes it really hard to guess. hehe... forgive me yea~ leave me a comment to guess n see how accurate u are!!! =) cheers ppl!!!

HL

about the post below...

omg did i write the post below????? it's so freakin depressing that i got depress reading it myself. ><

ppl, im fine.

seriously.

the post below (like i've said in the warning SO PLS READ IT) was written when im... technically speaking, depress so yeah, it's bound to be depressing. ><

but hey, guess wad?

i felt a new kind of sensation ytd night when i was doing my daily devotion wif God. it's like, im seriously feeling the desperation for God, n poof! God's there.

i dont really know how to describe it but, WOW. it was an amazing night. so yeap~ that explain the 360 degree difference of today's post n the last one. ^^

im sorry if i made some of u worried. T.T

truth be told, im feeling so much better today than i've felt in this whole month. truely, when God touches u, nothing will be the same again. i jz hope this time i'll learn how to coop better n stop being such an emotional wreck everytime something comes up.

n woah... even my songs are emo. ><

ling arh ling... *shakes head*

shepherrrrddddd, when r u coming back from perth???? got loadss of stuff wanna ask u neh... sigh. so not good timing la u. hahahahhahaha~ but seriously, hv tons of fun n buy me a pressie from aust!!!!! =) (oh yeah, pls take tons of pics too!)

i know roughly the direction i hv to go now. =D no more huei ling the lost little sheep. but rather, huei ling the sheep that's going HOOOMEEEE~

jz make sure u provide a map for me so i dun get lost yea. xD (knowing my sense of direction n all~)

hmmm...

its now 5pm n i havent eaten anything yet for the whole day. why am i still so hyper?

Nehemiah said, "Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is sacred to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the JOY OF THE LORD IS YOUR STRENGTH." neh 8:10

YOUR JOY IS MY STRENGTH!!!!!

as long as God is please, i'll be fine. =)

amen Lord, im getting stronger. (hopefully) xD

joyfully yours,

HL

(im still the happy girl i was in the past lah... she's jz buried beneath all the craps n problems of the world. but i've found her again so no worries!)

tears are so annoying

warning: below was written when im in a state of complete frustration over my stupid GS assignment so dun take anything i say seriously.

These few days im seriously going crazy. assignments arent really going well coz i found out that im actually easily distracted. ><

i cant pay attention for even 1 hr until i side track to other websites to release my boredom. (argh stupid fb n youtube.... T.T)

n then there's my own personal problem to deal with. i really wonder...

why is it so hard to jz be a happy girl? i wanna go back to the past. where's that happy-go-lucky huei ling whose worries are limited to jz family bickering? where's the huei ling that used to be so relax and loving every minute of life bcoz it's full of happiness? seems like she's gone for a very long time.

im missing her already...

i remember huei ling is someone who doesn't cry in front of others. (rarely anyway.) i think in the past i can count the number of ppl i really cried in front of with only one hand. Few of them included my mum, tracey, hui2, joachim, n my brother.

but now... in jz few months, it grew drastically. i wonder since when huei ling became such a cry-baby?

Lord, i jz want to be happy again. why is it so hard? i dont really know what to do already. i even felt like crying jz now when i grew frustrated over a stupid email. this never happen before...

when did i became so weak?

Lord, strengthen me up. im sick of crying, sick of being so worried everytime..

im tired of praying the same thing over and over again n nothing seem to change.

it seems like im official lost.

a lost little sheep wandering the fields, searching for her shepherd.

Searching for rest and happiness.

Lord where are You?

You are kinda quiet in this area... always im the one begging with tears n heartache.but i cant seem to get an answer...

or mayb...

the answer is always inside of me, only i dont want to acknowledge it coz im afraid of getting hurt?

im afraid of everything nowadays.

such a big fat scaredy-cat cry-baby.

how am i ever gonna grow up to be an adult?

i'll forever be a kid like this....

but Lord, thank you for being here. even though You are still kinda silent. but i definitely can feel Your peace coursing through my brokenness, Your spirit encouraging me, making me feel like i can still survive.

yeap.

huei ling is not that weak until she cant survive.

i still don't really like this new and current useless person i am now though. last time, i had ppl coming to me commenting that im a strong girl in facing challenges...

but now, i always hv ppl coming to pray for me, encouraging me to toughen up and be strong.

ironic sia...

what a big difference.

how ppl change when faced with a frustratingly depressing problem.

it gets even more depressing when u know it's all your fault this problem happen in the first place and u did nothing to stop it.

Lord, if i can turn back time, im not sure i'll do things differently though... im pretty sure i'll still do the same stupid decision over again.

im such an emotional wreck. ><

sum1 told me straight to my face that i do everything based on my emotions today.

感情用事

i totally agree.

it hurts like hell, but its true.

how do i change though? im SO obsessed with protecting myself from this world that i CANT make decisions without considering what its gonna do to my feelings first.

even though its a right decision...

God, i need a breakthrough in this area.

i want to do Your will, but You nid to provide a way for me. coz i cant do it alone... i'll jz break n break n break until i so broken that i nid to glue myself together pathetically, piece by piece, yet still the scar of the broken pieces will still be there, never whole like before.

can anyone understand?

i wonder if my shepherd can understand... im afraid of her reaction. im afraid she'll be disappointed at how weak i've become... im afraid she'll ask me to do things that are right but will break me all over again.

im afraid afraid afraid of...

im afraid of tomorrow.

i wonder what will happen...

but no worries, my God is with me. so even if i break again, He'll give me the glue and stay beside me while i pathetically glue all my broken pieces one by one together, all the while, He'll hold my hand and make sure my tears wont wet all the glue useless.

hahaha

aint it the funniest thing i've jz said????

it's called humour guys.

im a humorous girl afterall. dont forget that.

=)

HL